Trip to the ER last night

Let me give you a little back story.

DF and I rented a doppler a short while ago. We were able to pick up the heartbeat a few times and it was AMAZING! Well, for the past few days, we couldn't pick up a heartbeat at all. I would try for 25-30 minutes at a time, a few times a day.....still, nothing.

I was cramping last night and that combined with STILL not finding a HB got me worried. DF took me to the ER so we could get some answers once and for all. So off we went.

When we got there, they took me back fairly quickly. They started off by trying to pick up the HB with the ER doppler. The nurse couldn't find a HB. She called another nurse to try. She too couldn't find it. So they called ANOTHER nurse to try. He couldn't find it either. Now they called labor and delivery and had one of the women from there come down with a better doppler. As hard as she tried, she couldn't find a HB.

As a last resort, I was sent for an ultrasound. Praise God, the baby is fine! They aren't sure why they couldn't pick her up on the doppler but she alive and kicking (literally). She measures 1 day ahead (was 2 days behind last time) and the HB is 171bpm. Sweet baby had hiccups. It made me laugh. It was like watching my kids on the trampoline. Ya know when kids sit indian style on the trampoline and one kid bounces? All the ones sitting get bounced around like crazy. Well, that's what happened to our little one. It was like watching popcorn pop lol.

We saw her scratch her face, kick her feet and as I said earlier, have a wicked case of hiccups. It was AMAZING!!!!

I got another pic (seen below). I held this photo next to the first one from 3 1/2 weeks ago and OMG, what a HUGEEEEEEE difference.

Anywho, that's how last night went down.

BTW...im sending that damn doppler back TODAY! It was supposed to ease my mind but all it's done is cause me grief! Good riddance!

We heard it!

I forgot to post about this!

About a week ago, I rented a doppler from baby beat. I tried and tried and couldn't pick up nutter butter's heartbeat. Im still really early to be hearing it.

Well, last night I was laying on the couch watching TV and I decided to give it another try. Im SOOO glad I did, cause I was able to hear it! DF and I are on cloud 9! We timed the beats and it seems that his/her hearbeat (as f last night) was at 124bpm. This puts me a little more at ease. I mean, I was only 9w3d going by the doctors (should be a little less actually). That's pretty early to pick up a heartbeat on a doppler.

In about 7 1/2 weeks, I should be able to find out the sex of the baby too. I can't wait. I hope he/she cooperates when it comes time to check. I'm so anxious to know what we're having. Im ready to SHOP! lol

Aerosmith and Motley Crue

So the Aerosmith/Motley Crue concert was this weekend (Saturday October 21st). I waited my whole life to see Aerosmith and can you believe it, I got 2nd row seats!!! I was so friggin excited!

Motley Crue went on first. They put on an AMAZING show! Vince Neil, Tommy Lee, and Nikki Sixx were very interractive with the fans. I love that.

Nikki had a super soaker filled with fake blood and of course, I ended up wearing a lot of it. Needless to say my hair has gone from red, to pink lol (wonder how long it will take to wash out) LMAO. I also got Nikki Sixx's guitar pick. VERY COOL!

Tommy was looking sexy as ever and really wailed on the drums. Vince sounded great and looked amazing too. The show was amazing and I would totally see them again and again and again.

Aerosmith on the other hand really disappointed me. That's the whole reason I went to this concert and HAD to be upfront. $275 per ticket and that fucker (Steven Tyler) didn't even come to my side of the stage. He spent the whole time on the catwalk or on the opposite side of the stage. Way to interract with your fans jackass.

To top it off, they didn't even play nearly as long as Motley Crue did. Motley Crue played for an hour and a half and Aerosmith played for about 40 minutes. One minute they're rockin out and then without warning, Steven Tyler says "thank you and goodnight". Umm what? Goodnight? No encore, no nothing. That was it.

I knew after the second song that he wasn't coming over on my side of the stage. I mean, to be in the second row and still have to watch the monitor so you could see him is rediculous. I sat in my chair and honestly.. Ished a few tears. I guess I got my hopes up. Aerosmith is my all time favorite band.

Anyway, I got some great pics. Here are a few. Obviously I can't post them all, but thought i'd share a few of my favs...

Morning sickness

All I can say is... UGHHHHH. I feel terrible! Earlier tonight (around 8pm), I was on my way home with DF and the kids. We just got done watching his little borthers championship game, and going out for a bite to eat. I ordered a salad and some apple jouice, but only ate 3 bites. I drank half my juice though.

On the way home, I got REALLY sick. At first I thought it was car sickness but it's NEVER gotten this bad. Normally i Can fight it ant not vomit. I just feal queazy for a bit and i'm ok. Not this time..

I had to tell DF to pull over. What sucks, is that we were on the backroads and there was nowhere for him to stop. I had to hold it back until he came to a church. Once he turned in, I jumped out of the car, and away I went.

At first I was dry heaving. That sucked bad enough but oh did it get worse. After a couple heaves, it started to come up. Soon there was so much that I couldn't even catch my breath between batches. It was back to back. There was SO MUCH! How could I possibly throw up more then I ate in 2 darn days?

I've felt sick for a couple days now, but never threw up. Not until tonight. I never had morning sickness with DS, or DD. The only time I did was with the baby we lost. Because of that i'm kinda worried but then again, we were just at the doctor yesterday and everything was just fine.

In the next couple day's i'll be receiving the fetal heart monitor that we rented. Once i can pick up a heartbeat on it, i'll feel much better. I'll have it here for reassurance anytime I want/need.

Anyway, I still feel terrible and I haven't even taken my prenatals or prometrium yet. Imr eally hoping that I can keep them down. I hate throwing up. I hate it sooooo much! I literally cry when I puke. I guess cause it hurts so much (that and it comes out of my nose too).

Well, here's to a night of HOPEFUL rest and keeping my meds down. Let the 9th week begin!

Yesterday's Appointment

What a GREAT appointment! The nurses were awsome, the 3rd year res who did my pap and ultrasound was awsome, and the doc was awesome too!!!! Im VERY happy!

They took so much time to sit and BS around with me. WONDERFUL bedside mannors, great sense of humor, and very accomodating. They did an u/s (abdominal not vaginal) and while I didn't get pics (they didnt give me any and I didn't ask), I did see a nice heartbeat and the baby's head..YAY! She said the baby is healthy and that the spotting is NOT pregnancy related.

She did a pap and found that I have a fried spot on my cervix (from the LEEP) and it's soo tender. OUCH! She said that's the cause of my bleeding. She did a couple cultures of it and then checked my cervix in depth. It's 1.5cm short.. EEK!

Good news is that they are doing the cerclage. I go in on Halloween for pre-op stuff and then the surgery is on November 13th (don't know the exact time though). That was my grandmothers birthday. I just know she'll be there with me in spirit. They're gonna do a spinal and then stitch me.

Im still on pelvic rest but only penetration. We can do "other" things though.. HELL YEAH!!! Im also allowed to exercise (tennis, pilates, etc).

I asked about the "big u/s" and if they would be willing to do that the week before x-mas, since i'll be 17 weeks. He said "well, the problem with that is at 17 weeks you don't always catch everything you're looking for. Yes, we can tell the sex of the baby then, but we cant tell if there are any deformities at that point." He also said "the cost of those ultrasounds are upwards of $300 a piece and most insurances wont pay for it more then once. If you want, when you come in, tell them you want an ultrasound to determine the sex of the baby on the regular ultrasound machine. They'll accomodate you". YAY!!!! That means i'll be able to find out for x-mas. What a gift huh?!?!

More good news. They changed my due date. They're staying with the date of my period. That puts my due date at May 24th, and im 8weeks 6 days pregnant as of today!.

DAMN RIGHT!!!!!!

Passing old blood....again

On Wednesday, October 4th I passed a decent amount of old blood. I was worried and went to the ER. We say the baby's heartbeat and they said everything was fine.

On Friday, October 6th, I started passing more old blood. This time it lasted for a while. It lasted until Monday, october 9th. At that point it stopped and I haven't spotted since.

Not until today that is. Im passing old blood again. I just don't get it. Im taking the prometrium I was prescribed, im on pelvic rest, and im nto doing anything strenuous. What could it be?

I have an OB appointment tomorrow (i'll be 8 weeks) so hopefully i'll know more then. Im a little apprehensive though. Im afraid that even though we've seen nutter butters heartbeat, that when we go tomorrow there wont be a heartbeat at all. Im so afraid of bad news. Im pretty calm about it, but still scared. I wish it would alreayd hurry up and get here so I can get it over with.

Still feel like crap..

Last night was awful. I just HAD to call my doctors office to see if there was anything I could take to make myself feel better. The answering service called back and I spoke with one of the other doctors. She was sooooooo nice. SHe told me I can take ANY kind of tylenol and ANY kind of robitussin. I had some tylenol sinus and allergy here so I took that. I was able to breath through my nose last night so YAY, I got some rest.

Today I got some more tylenol cold and some robitussin cold. I still feel crappy, but i'm able to breath 70% better then I can without it. The downside is that I slept the day away. I woke up at 9am and went back to sleep at 11am. I slept until 1pm and then got up to eat. At 2pm I went back to sleep again. I slept until 3:45pm then got up to start making dinner for the kids.

It's now after 9 and i'm STILL tired. I feel like I could sleep for a week. Im exhausted. It's gotta be a mixture of the cold wearing me down, as well as the hormones from pregnancy. Im like a female version of rip vanwinkle LOL...

Anywho, I will be 8 weeks pregnant on tuesday. I have my first high risk OB appointment. Im really hoping that i'll get to see my little nutter butter again. Im so looking forward to it. I may also be able to find out if i'll need a cerclage then. I guess we'll see.

Ugh....so sick

Yes, I too have fallen victim to the change in weather. I am amongst the rest who are coughing, aching, stuffy and BLAH feeling. The worst part is my nose. It's so dry up there. It hurts to TRY and breathe through it. I didn't sleep well last night because of it.

I asked some of the other girls on idob, what i'm allowed to take while PG. Apparently there isn't much I can take. Im not far enough along for it to be safe yet so I have to just ride it out. SUCKS!

I have DF bringing home a vaporizor. Maybe that will help open me up a little bit. I'm drinking lots of O.J too. I just wanna feel better :(

Strange dream last night...

Last night I had a dream that I went in for an ultrasound. I was further along in the pregnancy then I really am though. The whole pregnancy we only saw 1 baby in there, but at this appointment we saw 2! Both of them girls! It was the strangest thing.

DF kept saying "no, one of them HAS to be a boy" lol. DF's mother was extremely happy and so was I.

I wish I had two healthy babies in there but im sure there's only one. If there were two, im sure there aren't now. Not after almost a week of passing old blood. It's strange though. With my hcg levels being so high, and the ER doc asking if I was on fertility meds (saying that there oculd be another one that we dont see yet), I guess it made me really think about it. Especially since i'm showing so early.

See for yourself! These pics were taken WEEKS ago! In the first pic I was 3w5d and in the second I was 4w6d.. WHOA!



Just for fun, here's the test that really confirmed I was pregnant (even though I had already gotten positives on 4 different brands...9 tests total LOL)..

7 weeks pregnant!

Can you believe it? I'm 7 weeks pregnant as of today. The past few weeks have flown by. As much as I love being pregnant and wanna treasure every second, I really wanna hurry up and get to 14 weeks. The risk of miscarriage drastically drops at that point. Sadly, that still doesn't mean im safe.

A couple years ago I had a LEEP procedure done. I had 2/3 of my cervix removed due to pre-cencerous cells. It had to be done or it would have spread. Because of this though, I am at risk for IC. There's a good possibility that I will need a cerclage in order to keep me from having a second trimester miscarriage. Basically, they'd stitch my cervix shut. From what i'm told, they'd remove the cerclage around week 37 of pregnancy. After that i could go into labor at any time.

The down side is that I may not be able to deliver vaginally. Sometimes when a woman has a cerclage, her cervix is unable to dialate completely and she ends up with a c-section. Though it's not something I want, I guess I wouldn't have much choice. I'll do whatever it takes to have a healthy baby.

As of right now though, im only on pelvic rest. That means no sex or any kind. Im not to increase the blood flow down there at all. If I wasn't having a problem with passing old blood, I probably would be allowed to be intimate, but that's not the case. Again, better safe then sorry, right?

My first official appointment is in 1 week. I'll be seen at the high risk department. At first I thought that would be a good thing. They see only high risk patients so I assumed I would get the appropriate care. Well, I haven't even been in there yet and already they push me aside. Lovely! Im gonna give them 1 chance. If I am even the slightest bit disappointed in their services, I WILL take the 6 hour round trip drive to MY doctor back home. Atleast then I know I would be treated like gold and would receive the BEST possible care.

Yes it's been a while..

As you can see, my last entry was almost 5 months ago. Im still dealing with the loss of my cousin. Im much better now, then I was then but it's still hard. My dad's birthday was yesterday and instead of celebrating, I kept thinking to myself "this time last year, Brandon was here with us". It's hard letting go.

I do have good news though!

IM PREGNANT!!!!

We're 6 weeks and 6 days pregnant. I didn't wanna announce it until we heard a heartbeat so that's why I waited so long. I've passed my milestone (where I miscarried last time). Im 2 whole weeks past it.

On Wednesday, October 4th, I went to the ER. I was bleeding but it was old blood. Still, I was scared. They did an internal exam, an ultrsound and checked my HCG. My beta came back over 10,000 (WOW!) and we saw our nutter butter's heartbeat on the utlrasound. It was AMAZING! Im measuring two days less then I should, but they said that's normal. Either the sperm and egg didnt meet until 2 days later then we thought, or it was hard for her to get a reading cause the baby is so tiny right now. She said I should know more at my next ultrasound. The docs put me on pelvic rest until im cleared by my OB and told me to follow up with them.

I called them and tried to get in before my scheduled appointment on October 17th but they refuse to see me until then (JERKS). Luckily the bleeding stopped...or so I thought. On Friday it started again and I wasn't sure what to do. Still, the docs refused to see me. I had no choice. I called my doc back home (where I used to live). He was so kind and supportive. I told him what was happening and he called in a prescription for prometrium. He said ti will help to maintain the pregnancy, but not to worry. Since im not cramping and the blood isn't red, there's nothing to worry about.

Now it's monday and im still passing old blood but I feel better about it. My doc from back home called today to check on me. How awsome is that? It's a bust monday morning and he took the time to call and check on me to see how I was feeling or if I needed anything. He's AMAZING!

Anywho, I have a pic from the ultrasound that i'd like to share. Between the +'s is my little nutter butter. IM SO EXCITED!!!!