I knew it...

Just like I figured, my temp dropped drastically. Why am I given false hope?? WHY? Why must my chart turn triphasic? Why the imp dip? Why the early ovulation on Christmas eve?

Im so depressed. I feel like pouring myself a huge glass of wine (yes I know it's not even 8am) and crawling into bed. Im dying for a cigarette too.

Im gonna have DF set an appointment to get a SA asap. I pray im wrong and that it's not him, but it's the only thing that makes sense. Atleast if it were me, we'd have options. If it's him, games over. Im not gonna do DIUI.

I already have 2 children and for that im grateful, but we really want one together. It's a way of having 2 families become one. This way we're all linked by blood. He may not be blood to my children, but my children are blood to me, which would be blood to the baby, which is blood to DF. Unity!

Now all there is to do is sit and wait for AF to arrive. She should be here tomorrow.