Rainbow Bridge
My childhood dog went to rainbow bridge today. My mother had to put her down. She was in so much pain. I know it's the best thing for her, and im so happy that she's no longer hurting, but the pain in my heart will last forever.
I was just with her this past weekend. As bad off as she was, she still worked through the pain to kiss me and cuddle with me. I promised her I would be back to see her on new years eve weekend. She wasn't scheduled to be put down until after the new year. Sadly, she got worse since this weekend and it had to be done.
I spent the whole day today, crying my eyes out. I never knew you could run out of tears. Im officially all cried out. Im upset that I wasn't with her when she went (I live 3 hours away and wouldn't have made it in time), im upset that i'll never see her again, and im upset that I had to explain to my kids what happened to snowflake.
The seem to be doing ok and understand what's going on. My son was upset for a while but he's much better. I can't say the same about myself. I cried so hard and so long that I ended up passing out. I drained all my energy.
My sweet girl was completely blind in one eye and 90% blind in the other. She could only see shadows. She had arthritis, tumors, bad teeth, and a bad hip. She was in so much pain that she couldn't get up to go outside an potty. She would just go on herself and lay in it. Whenever she did try to move, she would cry non stop.
My mother was supposed to call me once she passed but she didn't. I ended up calling the vet to ask if she had passed on and how she did. They were very kind and understanding. Im not upset with my mother. I know she was trying to collect herself. She had to go back to work and you cant bring personal matters into the work place. It's not professional. I just wish we could have cried together. Every time I tried calling her she would rush to get off of the phone with me. I guess hearing my pain hurt her to much.
I hope this pain eases as the days go by. Right now it feels like it will never end. I know she's in heaven now, young again and running free. That's the only thing that's helping me to keep my sanity.
Snowflake... You were my only friend for so many years. We shared a lot together. I'll never forget how loyal and loving you were. I'll miss you sweet girl...Rest in peace!
Snowflake: 1992-2005
I was just with her this past weekend. As bad off as she was, she still worked through the pain to kiss me and cuddle with me. I promised her I would be back to see her on new years eve weekend. She wasn't scheduled to be put down until after the new year. Sadly, she got worse since this weekend and it had to be done.
I spent the whole day today, crying my eyes out. I never knew you could run out of tears. Im officially all cried out. Im upset that I wasn't with her when she went (I live 3 hours away and wouldn't have made it in time), im upset that i'll never see her again, and im upset that I had to explain to my kids what happened to snowflake.
The seem to be doing ok and understand what's going on. My son was upset for a while but he's much better. I can't say the same about myself. I cried so hard and so long that I ended up passing out. I drained all my energy.
My sweet girl was completely blind in one eye and 90% blind in the other. She could only see shadows. She had arthritis, tumors, bad teeth, and a bad hip. She was in so much pain that she couldn't get up to go outside an potty. She would just go on herself and lay in it. Whenever she did try to move, she would cry non stop.
My mother was supposed to call me once she passed but she didn't. I ended up calling the vet to ask if she had passed on and how she did. They were very kind and understanding. Im not upset with my mother. I know she was trying to collect herself. She had to go back to work and you cant bring personal matters into the work place. It's not professional. I just wish we could have cried together. Every time I tried calling her she would rush to get off of the phone with me. I guess hearing my pain hurt her to much.
I hope this pain eases as the days go by. Right now it feels like it will never end. I know she's in heaven now, young again and running free. That's the only thing that's helping me to keep my sanity.
Snowflake... You were my only friend for so many years. We shared a lot together. I'll never forget how loyal and loving you were. I'll miss you sweet girl...Rest in peace!
Snowflake: 1992-2005
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