Serious pain

I have the WORST cramps, EVER! Im not bleeding as bad as I normally do (thank god) but the pain is worse then normal.

I tried so hard to stay positive. I wanted this so much and wasn't letting anything ruin my parade....until AF showed. Now I feel so down and don't wanna do anything but lay on the couch. Pity party for one please!

I feel awful that it didn't happen, but I feel even worse because there other people who have tried even longer then I have. What gives ME the right to feel so badly? I have so many mixed emotions going on.

Due to the snow storm that hit us all day yesterday and all last night, there's still no school for the kids, or DF. Im gonna spend time with them today to try and get my mind off of this (not that it will work but im gonna try).

The kids are already outside playing in the snow, so I guess I better head out there with them.

Thanks for listening...