Im so sad

All this waiting and positive thinking seems to be for nothing. Im 13dpo and have been getting BFN's. I figured it was because it was to early to tell. I thought for sure this month was gonna be our month *cries*. Well, I just went potty and when I wiped, I had CM with a lot of pink mixed in. That means AF is probably right around the corner.

I prayed so hard that this would be our month. All I wanted for Christmas was a BFP. Im so upset right now. All I can think about is looking down at that toilet paper, and seeing my dream ripped away. I feel like my heart has been torn out of my chest.

I poured myself a nice tall glass of wine. I guess it's not that bad..atleast I can drink *rolls eyes*.