It's over

The lab test today, confirmed our loss. Our sweet angel grew wings on March 21st 2006. He/She must have been very special to have been chosen by God himself. That's what I tell myself anyway. Hopefully i'll start to believe it soon.

I went to the doctor after I did the bloodwork and recieved my results. I handed them the paper confirming my loss. While speaking with the NP, she told me that I could start trying again this cycle if I wanted to. I guess that's a good thing, but she had also said things I didn't need to here. Like the fact that I miscarried on the table there the other day, when they left me in the room for all that time. She also made it known that the brownish stretchy blood I have is "pieces of the fetus". I didn't need that visual at all. That makes me hurt even worse.

Im fortunate enough to have a good friend who's on her way right now. She's making a 4 hour drive to be here with me. She's been through this twice and im sure will be able to help me on my journey as well.

My mind is a mess and im cramping a bit now. Im gonna go have a drink.